oh! i almost forgot!

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my exact feeling this morning when i arose from my slumber.
even though i am on a much needed vacation...i felt [[blah]]this morning.
i laid in bed, trying to shake the discontenting feeling. thinking of things that i need to do, as opposed to doing things that i want to do, so i stayed in bed a little while longer.

when i realized that i couldn't release the feeling on my own...i did one thing that i am good at doing...praying!
after the imperative conversation with the AWESOME ONE, i got up and began to approach the first day of my mini-vacate with pleasure and gratitude!
it started off a tad bit slow,but then i read some inspirational stuff and instantly became motivated and ready!

as i proceeded with my self assigned tasks for the day...my mind began to wonder....

"is a certain amount of chaos in life necessary and beneficial?, how is it that we are privy and exposed to so much knowledge and inspiration and encouragement and empowerment, but quickly forget to apply it in the midst of tumultuous or even minute life challenges and stressors?"

i think i came up with an answer....
because we are human... 'beautifully human!' "we are fearfully and wonderfully made!"

i do believe that a smidgen of chaos from time to time is ok. Hey, it's the reality of the matter, so we may as well accept it. figure out how to handle it and move on.

chaotic events will occur.
disappointments will happen.
sadness will come.

so if we know this.....why do we often times get bent out of shape?
i understand that emotions are so powerful, they can take control of the strongest, most emotionally healthy and intelligent person ever....so why cant we always remember to control our emotions and not allow our emotions to control us?

oh...i almost forgot.....
we are human, beautifully human at that!

i'm not using the whole "i'm human" thing as a cop out, i do know that can be used by some in efforts to excuse purposely unacceptable behavior, which is not a good look. i do believe in taking responsibility and owning up to personal wrongdoings and mistakes...but i'm saying, we have to remember to not take ourselves too seriously all the time and accept our humanness.

accept the fact that we will not be able to please every single person in which we interact and have a relationship with.
accept that we will make mistakes.
accept that we will fail at something.
accept that we will get angry about something.

in order to live a relatively serene and sane life...
we must have acceptance and the ability to allow ourselves to a few mishaps.
we have to remember that our feelings are valid.
be alright with being you...if that is hard to do, figure out a way to identify the source of your discontentment and begin to work on it....
(if you havent notcied by now, i love internal work, as difficult as it tends to be..it's one of my passions)
aaaanyhoo... back to the topic

there is only one you. one me. embrace that person...accepting all the flaws and imperfections and greatness and uniqueness and roll with it!

and if they/he/she/it don't like it....straighten your back, raise those shoulders, stand up straight, smile and confidently say "humph! i'm me. i'm fearfully and wonderfully made. oh, and i almost forgot...
i'm beautifully human"!

**disclaimer**in certain situations, do all the body gestures and just say the other stuff in your head...we still wanna appear to be sane here!
{{smooches, hugz & luv}}